Limerence / by Alex Williamson

You and your sister

Live in a lemonworld

 

I want to sit in

And die.

 

You and your sister

Live in a lemonworld

 

Doo doo doo doo doo

Doo doo doo doo doo

 

                        Matt Berninger

 

 

 

I’m tearing up old letters

To make a confetti shower

 

For one. At the bar tonight

There are fairy lights,

 

Old funk music

And limitless gin.

 

I am the life and soul.

I am on the outside

 

Looking in.

I have hit the wall

And can’t get over it.

Sing me a story.

 

Send me into raptures

That last

 

All night long.

None of this will matter

 

In the morning.

All will be forgotten

 

Or woebegone.

For I am a child of the 80s,

 

Growing older

By the day.

 

I know stickle bricks

And fuzzy felt,

 

Ways to wear

Hats badly,

 

And dance

Like a chicken

 

To make

Young women laugh.

But there it ends.

My reflection is no longer

 

My friend.

You’ll go home

With your sisters,

And take your partner

To parties,

And I’ll lie down

In darkness,

My heart in a twist,

 

Scouring the web

For a term

 

To limn

The shape I’m in.

 

I’ll dream about

Sticking pins

 

In a pinboard,

Skipping over a dance floor

 

With barely concealed grin,

Under a mirrorball

 

Glittering our faces

Like torn confetti.